Monthly Archives: December 2012

The heartbreak kid had a heart after all

This post only exists because I need it to make sure not to turn back.
It is easier in english for some reason.

My room is now completely empty since I am moving out tomorrow and ironically I have never felt more empty, ever. I am trying to understand what just happend… I need to write this down to realize it is actually true.

It all started 18 months ago and since then I have been lying to so many people.
After a week in Austria I knew I had fallen blindly in love with this girl. It took many sleepless nights to accept. I can not explain why I love her, she just got to me. But most important, we had insanely fun together. She was my soulmate. But in the end we never loved in the same way. And reality will catch up on you, specially if one decides to move on.
Why did it have to be now?

“Leaving means losing”, I even wrote it myself. In your face Sofie Lindblom.
I do not want you back though. The version of you I knew would never do what you did to me.

I hope that one day you will find happiness with someone . But it will not be with me. Oh It hurts, it hurts so much to let go. I have never experienced anything like it. I have kept my heart safely marinated in gin for the last couple of days, it helps, it makes you numb. Starting to sober up now and it is like being strangled from the inside. I am new to this being dumped thing but I would say that I am not really a “Backstreet boys and ice cream”-type of person. I would prefer to put myself in the “Skrillex and tequila” category . But you can not do that forever. So I will pick up the pieces, close my facebook account, leave my phone in Singapore, go somewhere far away and put myself together again.
And then date boys.

Therefore this will be my last blog post for a very long time.

Good Bye Sparvis
Good Bye Singapore

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Chances to survive in NUS badminton team?

I can now cross “Beating an asian person in badminton” of the list.
I won’t tell the score to spare JD some humiliation 😉

I forgot how much fun it is though. And it felt really good, like I never stopped playing. Why did I ever quit? Just when we were about to finish our game this old but really pro dudes start playing next to us. And I realized that I suck!

But it was a lot of fun, as the loser usually says 🙂

A Few hours extra sleep vs Check in luggage for a 6 week long vacation

Obvious choice for miss Paulie who almost missed her flight from Stockholm to Singapore this morning. The price you have to pay for some extra sleep is leaving your luggage behind on “stand-by” because check in had closed. I am not sure what “stand by” means but I see it as a challenge. Who needs luggage anyway? It keeps you limited. 

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ADAPTING TO LIFE IN SINGAPORE – LESSON 5

For weeks now there has been a silent war going on in my room.
Between me and the ants. It is similar to advertisement emails or herpes – once you got it it is impossible to get rid of. They are super small ants, you can barely see them. 

I am not sure how they got in but now they have created this ant-autobahn where the wall meets the window. It bothers me since it is close to my bed, so I kill them. But when I wake up they restored the autobahn. Yesterday they invaded my pillow, I was very upset, but you can’t really yell at ants (I have still not gone completely insane). I am also pretty sure that there is an ant family living in my computer.

What do you want from me ants?
I do not have sugar!
And I will kill you!
Go to Simona’s room! She has nutella 😉

Pluggar! Inte alls….

Såhär ledsen är jag över det:

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